WholeMind Healing Pathways

The following was written by Lily and shared with permission.

 

I want to start with sharing some of my life experiences prior to ketamine. There were several factors that contributed to me benefiting from ketamine. I grew up in an extremely high demand religion (cult). I was taught from a young age that I didn't have any worth besides bearing children and being a slave to a man. I was taught that if I didn't obey the elders of the church, I wouldn't ever see my family again. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety Disorder at a very young age as a result. I was married to someone who sexual assaulted me and thought they owned my body; my no was never listened to. I experienced deep humiliation in that marriage and was so severely isolated from and all support systems. I was alone. I experienced years of infertility and infertility treatments where I gained weight and hated my body so strongly. I was ridiculed for not being able to have children and seen less than my church peers. In 2018 I was so severally depressed that my suicidal ideation almost became a reality. That shocked my system enough that in 2019 I underwent IVF treatment. I was blessed with 2 beautiful children. But my life was also medically put on the line each time. I also experienced 2 miscarriages during attempts for a 3rd child. I eventually was able to leave the church and then my spouse. With the help of my parents, who miraculously had fought not to lose me during my years married, I filed for divorce and began processing what had happened to me. I was diagnosed with c-PSTD during this time. 

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When I stumbled upon WholeMind, I was 1 year into the really hard divorce. My soon to be ex-spouse was torturing my nervous system with manipulation tactics like threatening to kidnap the kids so I would never see them again as punishment for leaving. I was at a breaking point. I felt so extremely unsafe, and the court system refused to help. I was contemplating suicide but couldn't leave my 2 young kids to the person who couldn't even remember to feed them and had abused all of us for years. My kids hated all noise above a whisper, wouldn't dance or listen to music, screamed like they were dying whenever we had to go places, cowed if anyone came near them, and had such severe developmental delays as a result of the abuse and trauma they experienced from their other parent. I knew I had to change something and find the will to survive, if not for me, for them. I had heard about ketamine probably 3-4 years prior but had no idea how to access it or find it. When I heard about WholeMind through a family member who used to work with Jasmine and Paul I instantly knew I could trust them. My deepest wish for peace was answered. 

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I had tried years and years of different kinds of talk therapy. I had also tried multiple types of antidepressants and anti-anxiety medications. I struggled with severe depression and anxiety my entire life. Suicidal ideation was my greatest companion. Ketamine grounded me into who I am and connected me with my higher mind/intuition. I learned what my capabilities were as a human. It has brought me deeper connection, self-love, and my true purpose. It opened the doorway into so much more life than I ever knew possible. It has also blessed my kid’s life. They now have access to a better version of me. Ketamine is one of the most effective keys to unlocking your full potential and remembering who you are. The work is not easy, but it is 10x faster, 10x more effective, and the benefits are lifelong. However, I wish I had known that the work would continue long after the treatment, it just would become WAY easier to manage. ALL of that is gone. Literally. I still get sad or anxious of course but I no longer have depression, anxiety, c-PTSD, or suicidal ideation. The harder emotions I experience are finally more than manageable. 

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If you’re considering ketamine treatment, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Literally. Whether you have trauma like mine, different trauma, or no trauma, ketamine will benefit your life. It will expand your mind beyond anything you could possibly image. My divorce has finalized. I found peace with the less-than-ideal results. I found my life's purpose and am working towards making it happen. I have found community and friends that I will have for a lifetime. I literally leveled up in a way I never in a million years thought possible. 

 

 

Stories like Lily’s are why the WholeMind Foundation exists.

Through community support and donor generosity, we’re able to offer treatment to people who would otherwise go without care. If you feel called to help someone find safety, healing, and hope, you can make an impact by donating to the WholeMind Foundation.